hell of a halloween night

Heyoo, been a really long time (around 2 months) since my last post. Well, I got busy with assignments, been having lots of pressure cos of my film project. We were really left behind, so I been sleeping over at uni recently. But it's all good now. We're back on track and I'm possitive that we can finished everything before Thursday.

Anyway, after working so hard on our assignment, me and my friend decided to celebrate halloween last friday night. Well, we used the excuse to dress up and have fun on halloween night. I dressed up as a super hot vampire and my friend was a zombie bride. We got in town at around 7 pm, grabbed a quick dinner and then decided to go to the Irish Pub. The beer was so damn expensive, so we decided to go to another club.

We found this asian club 2 blocks away from the Irish Pub, which is great, free entry plus cheap beer. We just got excited and bought jugs of beer as many as we can afford. hahaha.. Don't really remember what really happened that night!! This is my 2nd passed out moment in my life!! Hahaha... Anyway, I woke up at uni on Saturday morning, lying on the lining lovely uni chairs, Ains (me friend) was sleeoing under uni table and I got a stranger's phone numbers in my phone.. My friend told me that I danced wid a guy and exchanged phone number, kissed after that I passed out, and spewed in the club. Oh, not forget to mention that I spewed all over the disabled toilet there. Literally... all over the wall according to my friend! hahaha.. But I didnt swear to anyone which is good! I skipped work that morning, told 'em i got diarhea while actually I got a reaaaall bad hangover.. shhhhhh.... *secret*

Hell of a night!! but fuck yea, IT WAS F.U.N!

..... and i dont mind doing it again!! lol.

so what if i dont speak chinese?

Today, I would like to file a complaint to the customers at my workplace (the asian restaurant one).

I would like to ask most of the Chinese customers to, please, ask first whether i can speak chinese or not before you speak the language to me. Most of you guys would speak it right away to us without any concern that we might not speak chinese! I would completely understand if I was in China, but I believe I live in a country named Australia and as far as I remember Australia still use English as their national language. Do you want me to speak Indonesian, Spanish or Korean to you without even asking you whether you could speak the languages or not?? I believe you wouldnt like that either. :p

And so what if one of my great great great grandfather or grandmother is from China?? So what if Im a half blood?? Do u think this is Harry Potter world or something? It's been hundreds of years since they came to Indonesia and nobody speak the language in my country anyway so why would I shouldve been able to speak chinese??

So please with all due respect, be considerate guys! I sometimes in a really bad mood and i've been having a hard time to control my emotion! trust me you dont want me to say something unpleasant to you.. Okay!!

Peace yo! v(-_-)v

Happy Bday!

I just wanna say happy birthday to my home country, Indonesiaaaa!! Happy 63th birthday!!
People might say you're a mess rite now, but I believe you'll be better in time! and you're still beautiful, The Emeralds of Earth's Equator! Hope all the best for you and see you soon.. ^^

And I would like to wish my friend, Jena, Happy birthday too!! I never thought that I would have a foreigner friend who shares the same birthday with my home country! Wish you all the best too Jin! :)

back to my routine

It's been 3 weeks since my last post on this blog. Lots of things has happened within these 3 weeks. I'm back to my routines again. Uni and work, except this time I'm working more than last semester. I wanna try to support my own life. Not try but I should. No matter how I want my parents to be responsible on me, but I guess, it'll be better if I can support my own life. Nobody would nag me about this and that, I could use that money to please myself without considering anyone's opinion, I could have my own life. Although they're still paying half of my living cost and the tuition fees, but I'm just trying bit by bit until I can fully support my life.

I still have time to have fun though, still hanging around with my friends, still got time to do my project, to study Korean, buy donnuts once every 2 weeks, I can still do a little shopping (only cheap bargain stuff tho) hehe.. I couldn't buy anymore nice shoes (at the moment) tho, but I definitely still have some fun in my life. :D

Erasing Your Trace

This is the last news about my crush on this guy that I told you guys in tha last 2 previous posts. Hmm, I finally told him that I like him. Well, not xactly told him directly, I wrote him a letter. A long letter which took me a couple of nights to compose it. The content is.... secreeettt!!

He didn't call me or text me at all after that. Probably he's busy. Well, unfortunately I saw him everywhere. Like the day after I gave him the letter. I saw him in the city, everywhere I go.. When I was walking to the toilet, walking to the bus stop and after I finished work which was 4 hours later, when I was on the bus going home, we happened to be on the same bus. I'm not sure if he saw me that time. Well, he might saw me but didn't know what to say. Same like me, full of questions right now, I wanted to talk to him, just to say goodbye to him properly and be friends like we used to be. But I don't know whether he still wants to be friends with me or not! That's why I didn't yell out his name.

Anyway he's leaving today. He probably on his flight back home now. So I guess it's time to say goodbye. I don't regret of what I did. At least I'm brave enough to say what I need to say. Just hoping what's best for him. So good byee....

*Well yesterday I was browsing on youtube.com and I found this new Indonesian Song. I translated the lyrics for you guys. I embeded the video klip as well. I just thought, it's one of the best heartbroken songs. I have to keep remember that life goes on...

Menghapus Jejakmu (Erasing Your Trace) - Peter Pan

Terus melangkah melupakanmu
Keep moving on, forgetting you

Lelah hati perhatikan sikapmu
My heart tired of the way you behave

Jalan pikiranmu buatku m'ragu
The way you think makes me uncertain

Tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan
This is impossibble to keep going on


Perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu
Slowly dream feels disturbing

Kucoba untuk terus menjauh
I'm trying to keep distant

Perlahan hatiku terbelenggu
Slowly my heart chained

Kucoba untuk lanjutkan hidup
I'm trying to continue my life


Engkau bukanlah segalaku
You're not my everything

Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
Not a place for me to hold my steps

Sesudah s'mua berlalu
When things all over

Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu
Let the rain erasing your trace.


Lepaskan segalanya..
Let go everything..

Lepaskan segalanya..
Let go everything..

life goes on..

It's been almost a week since the last news of my broken heart. It's still broken but I feel better now. A couple of days ago, I was no different with zombie. Before I went to sleep I always stared outside the window before I closed my eyes. After I woke up the next morning, I stared outside the window again. I kept staring empty at so many things for those couple of days. I even stared empty at my most favorite delicious food in the world which I usually stared at it with excitement!

After those 2 days, I realised something. I had a few broken hearts moment before, this is not my first time. Even I already had the worst one. But no matter how broke my heart is, the world is still rotating normally. The sun still shines so brightly each morning. Everything still goes on normally. I'm just like a little tiny part of all this gorgeous massive creation.

Even though I feels like shit and don't want to do anything at the moment, but I can’t avoid the fact that I still got other things to do, whether I like it or not. I still have to work to make a living, I still have to study, to continue doing my short film project, and I also still have other internal problems and issues. My dreams still there, are waiting for me to catch them. Life doesn't stop just because of broken heart. Life goes on...

So I reminisced my past, whatever problems I had, no matter how hard it was or no matter how hurt I was, I, somehow, always could manage to get out of the troubles. I always could get up and stand up once again. That's why this time, I have to get up and pull myself together, find a way to keep moving forward, follows the flow of life while finding my own happy ending. I will do well! Gue pasti bisa! 나 잘할게!

just another broken heart story

It's been an hour I only stared at my laptop's screen before I actually start writting this post. Staring empty, tried to think but I don't even know what I was trying to think. Just a few hours ago, somebody broke my heart. Somehow that person reminds me how it feels like to be broken hearted. Ironically, a few months ago that person reminded me how it feels like to like someone. To feel happy and excited when somebody call you. Feelings that I already completely forgot.

That person didn't know that that he actually just broke my heart. And again it's my fault because I was thinking too much and too long before I finally decided that I'm going to tell him that I like him and I thought he like me too. But a few hours ago he told me (because we're friends) that he already had someone, they just start going out. It makes me feel sad. I should've listened to what John Mayer told us : "Say what you need to say! .. better to say too much than never to say what you need to say!..". Dammiitt!! T_T If only I could turn back time but what's done is done.

I just realise that broken heart can actually make your entire system disable. Alright not entirely but most of your system, like what I just did, stared at the laptop's screen for an hour, trying to think but can think. It's like I have a brain damage or something *touch wood*. Ooo, I think it can make you become fat as well, cause everytime I start to think, I always end up thinking about doughnuts. T_T Haaahh, I hate this kind of feeling. Helpless, don't know what to do, always stare empty at something without even realising it.

My friend told me to keep going. I mean, don't step back and stay to my decission of telling him that I like him. But what if his gf find out? I don't want to have an armed jealous girl chasing me around and ready to stab me whenever she sees me. But in the other hand, maybe I would be able to move on faster after I released all those feeling by telling him the truth. I just need to ask him to keep this as a secret from his gf? nice idea, ay?

Aaaarrhhh, confused. What should I do guys?? I'm just gonna take a walk and think. I hope I would be able to think and find the answer. Haaahhh, staring outside the window again. Why the world is still so beautiful even when my heart is broken? I better grab some more ice cream.

Note : Yea, I know John! I should've listened to you.. (My friend kept singing John Mayer's Say in the next room... T_T)

help myself with helping people help themselves

Remember when I told you in the last 2 post before this, about the lady that selling Big Issue magazines? Well, I saw her again a few days ago. I was walking back to the bus station from my work place and there she was, selling the magazines at the same spot when I saw her before. As my promise before, I bought a magazine from her. She was so happy when I told her that I want to buy the magazine. She said to me, "I love you too!". Maybe that 5 bucks will really help her. Well, it's not much but I hope it will.

I helped her help herself. No, I actually helped myself too, despite of helping that lady is a right or wrong thing, despite of what people thought about me that time. I stopped the argument inside my head and I did the thing that makes me feel comfortable inside. And the most important thing is I did what myself wanted to do.

It's okay to be full of yourself sometimes..

It's okay to be full of yourself sometimes. Every human needs time to think only about themselves sometimes. To whinge about whatever they don't like sometimes. To complain about several things that we resent sometimes. That's completely alright. I don't see any problems with that. We are only human, being selfish is our nature. We just need to control our 'selfishness'. Let it loose once in a while, it won't hurt anyone. Even though it ends up hurting somebody, it's better than hurt yourself.

Yes, I am selfish, who doesn't anyway. Like recently, I'm so full of myself. But it doesn't mean that I'm whingeing and complaining about my life. I'm just feeling angry and in a very bad mood, I just don't know why. I thought I could get a support from my close friends. Especially, my best friend who used to be someone that I could talk to, someone that could make me feel better when I'm in a bad mood without give me any judgement, someone who could say that everything is going to be alright. But yet, all I got is disappointment.

Yes, I am in a bad mood. People who are in bad mood only talk about their shits and I guess that's a normal thing. What's wrong with people talking about their shits sometimes? Even though we realise that there are so many people out there who are suffering more than us and they might face a bigger problem than just having a normal bad mood or failing in a test. And my friends told me to pull myself together as if I'm complaining about my life everyday.

I don't need judgement, not even an answer. Answer is my own issue that need to be resolved by myself. Did i ever judge you or did I ever ignore you when you guys told me about your shits? or when you complaining about this and that?

No, I don't feel guilty to be full of myself. Because there's one thing that you guys should realise, my self control would never solve the famine problem in Africa, it would neither stop the war in the middle east. You might make me silent by telling me about others problems which might be bigger than mine. But you do not resolve their problem by telling me that, nor even resolve mine or yours. Don't ever tell me that I'm ungrateful. I might be greedy but I'm not an ungrateful person.

So it's okay to be full of yourself sometimes, to have a bad mood, to be selfish, to complain and whinge or to be angry without any causes once in a while. There are times to be emphatic and sympathetic to others. But we can't avoid the fact that we need some time for ourselves, the fact that we too, needs a little attention and support from others.

Thanks to my housemate who shares the same opinion as mine. Thanks to my other friends who finally gave me that support. And for my 'close friends', thanks for your 'support' which led me to find this opinion of mine.

crazyassignment

hey, how are you guys? haah, finally, i finished writing this post draft and able to publish it. It's about one of my last assessment for this semester. This week is the final week for me to submit all of my assignments. I finished all the presentation so I just need to submit all the stuffs that I presented last week. I also had to submit my assignments for other subjects.

Anyway, I had a problem with one of my assignment for CGI Visual Effects class. It was a real one crazy assignment! (thx God it's finished now). The assignment is about Hair and Cloth Effects. We were suppose to give hair and clothes to our character. For some people it worked well, but for others like me and some of my friends it didn't work! I had to use uni comps (cos it's quite a tough task for my laptop). I worked on it days and nights, yea literally, I had to stay overnight at uni for 3 days (first experience stayed overnight at uni because of assignment). I just went home to take a bath and eat a little more proper food - I just had noodles and meatpies for 2 days >.<.

But finally, I could finished it. yaaayy! Well, it was already 3 days late so I had to finish it and submit it like it or not. It wasn't a perfect work. The hair is still going through the character's head and the t-shirt and pants are still going through the character's body as well. I tried to fix it for hours but I only could make it look a little better, just a little. I didn't like the result but yea, I admit it was my fault anyway. I neglected this assignments for like 2 or 3 weeks because I was too concentrate doing my other project and i took a lazy week. Soooooo.... hikkksss....devastated, but it already happened anyway. cant do anything bout that.... hiiikksss.. dammit!! i should got a whip for being a sloth. haaaahhh....

Well, what's done is done! Let's move on and try not to do the same mistake in da future.

While I was sleeping (at uni)....

After trying fixing the problem for hours, finally it looked a little better and I decided to render the whole scene right away. I just didn't want to wait any longer. So I divided the scene into 4 computers and rendered it at the same time, hoping it'd be faster. While waiting for the rendering to complete, I went outside the class to rest a little.

There are a couple of sofas near the uni kitchen on that 5th floor - Animation Department is on 5th floor in that SO2 building (i forgot the name of that building just the number). Anyway I sat on one of those sofas there. Ohhh, I could have 2 sofas just for myself.. hehehe.. I was planning just to relax a little bit but I fell asleep on that sofa. I lost myself in a deep sleep until I heard the sounds of steps, the sounds were so far away but....

it was getting louder....

louder....

and louder... as it was approaching me...

then it stopped. I felt a pressence of something right beside me. I didn't dare to open my eyes but I had too..

I opened my eyes.....

slowly and.........

I saw a blurry face. As my sight was getting more focus, I was shocked!!!

There was a man face, one of uni security guard, smiled at me. I think he was watching me sleeping a moment before. His expression was like he just saw a baby sleeps peacefully. No, I think I just had a funny face while I was sleeping!! (maybe i slept with my mouth open or i laughed while i slept?) daammit, it was so embarassing! I got up straight away. He said good morning to me, then he walked away and laughed. I looked at my phone, it was around 4am. I walked back to my classroom and found my classmate still working on his assignment.. Woww!!

Oo well, I checked my assignment but it hadn't finished rendering yet that time. Sooooo, I pulled up a couple of chairs, lied down and sleep again. At least this time, nobody would see my funny sleeping face (cos my classmate seemed quite busy with his stuff).. I could sleep peacefully til before others come to uni... hehehe...

Silent Brisbane.

This morning, Brisbane was so foggy. Kind of Silent Hill but with no monsters and zombies (phiew..) Well actually, I dont mind if there's any monsters and zombies, as long as I'm equipped with Desert Eagle with enough bullets, machine gun and health potion of course. Ooh, and I always can go back to live whenever I'm dead or game over. hehe...

I took a few pics before I start my workshift at Out of The Box and here's the pic of 'Silent Brissy' (which is not silent at all cos it's full of buses in the morning -_-")

Today is my last day working at the Out of The Box Event. (ooohh, no more attention from people!! T_T) Anyway, after I finished my shift there, I went to the city with my friend, Maya. I need to buy oil resistant sole shoes for working. (yea, got new job at kfc, so I will be working at 2 places start from next week).

I walked around in the city lookin for shoes shops. It's night shopping today so every shops close at 9 pm. Maya and I went to eat at the Japs restaurant first cause we were so damn hungry. After we finished eating, walked to the big mall near there, while we were waiting to cross the street, there was a lady approached me. She asked me to buy a 'Big Issue' magazines, it's only 5 bucks each. I rejected her nicely, cause I didnt really know what is it about. I dont want to buy some nonsense news about 'do you really believe aliens?' or 'how to convert everybody to become a vegetarian'. But then she said to me that she and her friends there selling the magazines to make a living, apparently they're homeless.

I felt bad and I wanted to buy it, but the lights already turned green and I wasnt sure if I have some money left in my wallet, so I smiled and said sorry to her then I walked away. I couldn't stop think about it since then. I keep thinking (even until now), maybe I should buy the magazines, I mean, even only 1 magz, probably it could help them. I told Maya about this. We were about to buy it, but nobody around us seemed even bother to look at it. So we were thinking, is it true? the things that she told me, that she selling that magazines to make a living? But why nobody care about that? or they just wanted to not care about that?

Silent Brisbane, that's what's I was thinking, when I saw people including me stayed in silence, turned our cold back to that lady.

I dont want to be some kind of hero or saviour. I dont want to look like a nice and kind girl in front of others. I just couldn't stop thinking about that. Sometimes I feel bad, like I could buy a 100 dollars pair of shoes but I couldnt spare 5 bucks for people who needs it. But again when I started to think like that, the voices inside me head also started talking.

"No, you didnt do any mistake! You worked for that shoes! You want those shoes, that is why you worked to get it!"

"No, she's wrong! Dont defend her for that! She can please herself, get what she wants, but she has to consider about other people too! She cant be a selfish human being!"

"It's not selfish! She just gives herself a reward after working hard. If they want to make a living, they have to work hard too!"

"They are working hard! Selling the magazines? Hello!! They're trying too! They just need a little help. Some people can reach the top of the mountain by themselves, but some need a help. Every person is different."

And yea, they kept arguing..... still... -_-"

Those 2 people are not helping at all!! They're aguing everytime I have a problem or have a bad feeling even when I'm feel happy! cant believe it! >.<

I've decided, when I see that lady again, I'll just but the magz. I think that's a better way, so I wont be thinking about it anymore.

Centre of Attention!!

Hello my friends, after sometime I got a chance to write the update news about my life experience on this blog again. I still have assignments and loads of works to do but I spare some time to share my great experience volunteering for a major event in Queensland.

Yeap, i'm volunteering for Out of The Box, it's a once every 2 years festival for 3 to 8 year olds kids. I'll be working for the event in the animation workshops and as a 'buddy' (basically it's a tour guide) as well for the whole week. At first, I was just doing it for the sake of uni. I have to do 60 hours work experience to graduate, so this volunteer things can give me 15 hours work experience. But after like 3 days helping out there, it's tiring but also quite fun. Well, there were few things that uncool, but the rest is okay.

The cool things are :

1. I get to know new people.

2. Get the unlimited access through the whole QPAC (Queensland Performing Arts Centre) building which is a cool building.

3. Everywhere I go, those kids and some of the parents eyes following me and others with OoTB T-Shirts everywhere, as if I'm the coolest person on earth.. ahahaha!! Ooo yes, I loooovve attention! I'm such an attention seeker.. hahahaha...

They thought every volunteers know everything for that event but actually sometimes I gave the wrong direction and false information to people.. kkkk.. soorryy.. hehe.. >.<

Here's the picture, me on the way to Lyric theatre

Anyway the few bad things are :

- when I worked as a buddy for a big group wasnt that cool at all. The group was consist of parents and their kindergarten kids, the mums kept talking about things that i dont even understand (mums thingy) and the kids kept running around, so there I was, standing silently in the middle of the crowd, ignored!! a a.. I hate being ignored! I totally resent it!!

-another thing is when i worked at the animation workshops, some group of kids are really annoying. I felt like I wanna bump my head to the wall. They just never listen and when they stuck with the software, they started to yell out for help, asked things that has just been explained by the tutor. Crazy kiiidds!! One of them even cried because his partner didnt want to swap the mouse. haaaahh.... -_-"

Anyway, I still got 2 days left as the Centre of Attention!! hahaha.. Yeea, to all the kids who are coming to the OoTB festival, give us your attention!! We've been working so hard voluntarily to fulfill your needs of entertainment.. mwahahaha...

Seo Taiji - October 4th ( 서태지 - 10월 4일 ) Lyrics w/ English Translation

In the middle of the assignments' attack, I spared at time for myself to do things other than assignments. Y know, sometimes you just need to get outta the routines. One of the things is I'm learning Korean. Well, it's been almost a year I'm learning the language casually. I'm not taking a formal course or Korean class, just some of my Korean friends helping me out and teaching me the language. I tried to study it by myself sometimes, just grabbed a Korean song and tried to translate it, watched Korean drama, read Korean children books. It's quite fun to study other language, Korean is a quite hard to learn tho because the grammar structure is different with my language (Indonesian) and English. But so far, I managed to understand some phrases and words and I can read and write Han-geul (Korean alphabets).. yaay!!

Below is the first Korean song that successfully translated by me.! Well, one of my friend let me hear it around 2 months ago and i love it rite away. So I decided to translate it by myself. The song title is 10월 4일 (October 4th) and the singer is the band called Seo Taiji. My friend sent me some of his songs (most of them are rock songs) and actually I like them all. (고마워 종일 오빠! ^^) They're all cool!

Anyway, I already finished the translation since last week (my friend already checked it and he already corrected some minor mistakes.). I just got the chance to post it on now (I'm busy with assignments and final project lately). I also embedded the song on the right corner of this page. Soo... enjooyy the song!!

웬지 요즘엔 난 그 소녀가 떠올라
That girl keeps rising up on my mind lately

내가 숨을 멈출 때 너를 떠올리곤해
When I stop breathing, I used to think of you

내 눈가엔 아련한 시절의 너무나 짧았던 기억 말고는 없는데
Around my eyes, there is a vague old time, it was too short, i never cease those memories

넌 몇년이나 흠뻑 젖어 날 추억케해
You've completely soaked my mind these years

*네가 내 곁에 없기에
Because you're not beside me

넌 더 내게 소중해 너는 여우 같아
You're more precious to me, you're like a fox

잠깐 내가 잠든 사이에 넌 내 귓가에 속삭였어
When I sleep for a while, you whisphered in my ear

어째서 넌 날 잡지도 않았었냐고 원망했어
why did you say goodbye, i wasnt say spiteful to you

내겐 네가 너무 맑아서 말 뭇했어
you were so pure to me, i couldn't tell you

*

네가 없가에 이곳에 없기에 네가 없기에 넌 내 속에서
Because you are not here, you are precious to me

네가 없가에 이곳에 없기에 네가 없기에 넌 아름다워

Because you are not here, you are more beautiful

Romanisation Lyrics :

wenji yojeumen non keu sonyeoga deoola

naega sumeul momchul dae noreul deooligonhae

nae nungaen aryeohan sijeoleui nomuna jalpatton kiok malgoneun obneugyonde

non modnyeoina heumbeok chojo nal chuokehae

* nega nae gyeote obgiye non to nae ge sojunghae noneun yeowu katha

jamkkan naega jamteun saiye non nae kuitgae soksakyeosseo

ojtchaeseo non nal japjido anhasseotnyago wonmanghaetseo

naegen nega nomu malgeoseo mal muthaesseo

*

nega obgiye igose obgiye nega obgiye non naesokeseo

nega obgiye igose obgiye nega obgiye non areumdawo

Best Medicine in da Worlldd..

Hellow, my friends from all over the world. I'm back to make a new post on this brand new blog. Been having a pretty bad week. I got a fever, cold and sorethroat but still have to deal with heaps of assignments. I'm ok now, well, the cough still there but a lot better than previous days and I sounds a bit funny now. hehe..

Anyway, what I wanted to share with u guys is the best medicine in da world. I ran out of cold medicine (the one that I brought from Indo), they're all finished already. I dont wanna buy random cold medicine in here because I'm not sure about the ingredients (I'm alergic to some sort of ingredients, my eyes could badly swelling like an alien becos of that). Sooo, because I ran out of medicine, I tried to survive without any medicine other than tea+honey+lemon and vitamin C.

However, I found that the best medicine in da world is not tea+honey+lemon nor vitamin C. The best medicine in da world is HAPPINESS. I know it's kinda cheesy, but it's true!! I survived without doctor or medicines but I tried to keep myself happy all the time. Happy as in pleased myself like eat what i like, drink what i like, do what i like..

One of my friend told me that "Ceeeellll,, if you keep eating all the food that u like, you WON'T get any better soon!!".. "HA.. Guess what? I'm ok now, havent totally recovered but I'm ok!!" :p

*food and drinks that i like : junk food (KCF, Hungry Jacks, McD), Fish and Chips, Ice Cream, Coke, any cold drink, chilli (but dont eat this one, even me avoid this one.... hehe...)

Soooo, if you guys feel sick, just try to pleased yourself instead of goin to the doctor and swallow a few chemicals, just make yourself happy!! Eat what u like, eaaatt a looott, give strength to ur body and sleep a lot as in have a verryy goood resst!! or if you like playin computer games, just do it for 3 or 4 hours or any other stuff that you like to do (except for smoking, drugs and drinking, these deadly chemicals are excluded).

Remember : Keep yourself happy!! Cos happiness brings spiriitt to your lifee!!

Note : These method can only be applied for minor diseases for some people. If you have any dangerous disease of course you still have to make yourself happy, but in your case you gotta keep taking ur medicine. ;-)

To all people who's not feelin well or people who suffered from an illness out there.. Get Well Soooon!!!

One Lazy Day

Today, I took a lazy day... Well, actually this is the 3rd time I took a lazy day in this smester. I dunno why, I just feel sooooo lazy recently. I used to come to the class no matter what happens even if I was sooo lazy, but now?? I dont wanna do anything at all and I feel sleepy all the time. Oh NO!! I become a Sloth and commiting one of the Seven Deadly Sins, I would be condemn to hell if I dont change this situation.. >.<

But really, I dont really give a damn about anything, even tho I have heaaapppsss of assignments to be finished. I dont care if I come to the class or not. Tired because of nothing. Usually I ran staright to the bathroom when I the clock turned 7.15am! But today, I only turned my alarm off and went back to sleep!! I slept for almost 16 hours!! Well, it was good anyway.. hehe.. *slap* BUT even my friend, Maya usually started to panic if we're late, but today, we only smiled and laughed, "Haha.. We're late! Let's take a day off!" Ooohh, What the hell is wrong with us?!?!

So I'm wondering, is there some kind of lazy virus attacking Brisbane recently?! Hey, it might be a new invention of biological terrorists weapon to make people lazy!! MAYDAAAYY, all the scientists in da world, you gotta prepare the ANTI-virus before it spreads to all over the world!!

Aaaaarrghh, this is really an EMERGENCY situation!!! I need energy booster, somebody help mee!!! T_T

First Zoo Trip in Australia

Yeap, today is I have my first trip to the zoo after almost a year I've been living in Australia. Yaayyy!! Finally I went to the zoo (Alma Park Zoo) and saw the Koalas, Dingos and Kangaroos. Well, actually it was part of my life drawing class (if it wasnt because of this class, I might never go to the zoo) hahaha... - I'm not a big fan of animals except for Siberian Tiger and Snow Leopard. I mean, I dont really mind with them, I just dont really like touching them or being around them in a close distance. I love looking at them but not to touch them. Besides some of them are smelly and they have fleas on their bodies and that makes me....... 'hiiiyyy!!!''' *brrr*

Anyway, we supposed to produce like 5 or 6 pages of drawings there. So we spread around alone or in a group and tried to find some animals to draw. Maya and I took heaps of pictures while we're finding some objects to draw. Well, what can we do? Cant really help this Narcissism... hahahaha... But I managed to draw 7 pages.

Here are some of the pictures of our Narcissism Moment in da Zoo :

I look taller and slimmer in this photos (thanks Maya), anyway apart from myself look taller and slimmer, I like the environment, feels like movie poster.. haha..

Me and Koala

(my friend's rite they're not that amazing, they're sleep all day and smelly but they're quite cute.. hehe)

Me and the Roos

(Why did I touch it?? Well, my friend Maya told me, "It's not everyday u gonna see a Kangaroo!! So touch it while u're in Australia!! TOUCH ITTTT!!!", So I closed my eyes and touched it.. T_T I tried so hard to smile, a bit scared they gonna kick me or smtg.. But lucky this one that I took a pic with was pretty nice and calm... so phieww..)

I prefer Roos than Koalas. it's fun and quite challenging to draw them, lots of movements and their shape are unique. :D

We also took pictures of some other 'never-before-seen' animals.. hehehe...

Guinea Pig

(Never seen this one before, even tho my friend said that they're exist in Indonesia!! hmm..)

Common Marmoset

(noisy lil' creatures)

Our Daily 'Food'.. mwahahaha..

Bonus Story ;p :

Pet? Yea, I had a pet once, it's not like I'm an animal hater or smtg. It was a rabbit (and rabbit doesnt smell nor have flees ^^). His name was Sovanovsky de Bellen (I know, it was too cool for a rabbit's name) a.k.a Novsky, Oky, or Gendut (In Indonesian it means 'fatty' or 'fat ass', depends on how u say it.). It was like once in a life time moment. He was supposed belong to my friend, Vera. She bought it, I was just accompanied her when she bought it. But he always wanted to be close with me, so Vera told me to keep it. Anyway, he got sick and died after a week I had him. (my mum said maybe his name was too 'heavy' for him that's why he died.. Mum!! How could u? hiiks.. T_T) I was kinda traumatic with that. I was so daaamn sad and really cried for him. I dont wanna keep any rabbits since then. Scared of losing something. I hate the feelings of losing something. Not only sad but also hopeless when you cant do anything to bring it back.

Adrenaline Moment

K, 1st story i want to share is my crazy experience of adrenaline moment! I went to Byron Bay last week with one of my friend, Matthew. Well, a week before he came up with a crazy idea about doin skydiving. Well, hell yea I wanted to try it so I told him that I wanna try it too. We planned the whole trip together, tried to call some friends to join us, but unfortunately they were busy with assignments. We decided to go anyway, there's no way we missed that chance!!


So we went there on Sunday 040508 and went skydiving on the next day 050508. It was GREAAT!! Well, I was a bit scared but excited when I was on the plane up there. Then, I jumped out of the plane (technically my tandem master who jumped out of the plane, since I was already attached to him, I had no choice, besides I already paid to feel that 2 minutes excitement.). Yea, so I closed my eyes and suddenly I was out of the plane, falling freely down to the earth with the speed of 200mph.


1st 10 secs : "what the hell am i doing up here? I must be craazzzy!!"

the next sec after i opened my eyes : "hell yea, I am crazzzyy cos this is fun*freakin*tastic!!"

After the parachute opened : "I definitely gonna do this again!" It's really beautiful up there. Now i know why those skydivers love to jump outta the plane.


When I was back safely on earth I felt like I already conquered the world... hahahaha.. Now I'm fearless!! (err, except for insects, still cant cure this phobia.. T_T) But, I can sleep in the darkness now. hehe..


I called my mum and dad 15 mins after I landed, told them that their daughter just jumped out of the plane.. hahaha.. (cos I kept this as a secret from them before, otherwise they'd jinx the weather to become bad so that I cant jump) As I expected, they were shockeed! (I called them separately but their reaction were the same) Well, they were cool at first but after a few seconds they yelled, "Wooooottt????!!"


My dad told me that I'm his crazy daughter, but he's so proud of me for my courage.. hahahaha...
Love ya mum and dad!! Pls forgive me for lied to u... hehe..


Here's the pics when I was skydiving. They're a bit blurred cos I captured it from a video (I'll upload the video l8r, still havent got a chance to compress it).

Anyway, if u wanna see other skydiving pictures or some of my Byron Bay vacation pictures, here's the link :

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=23180&id=522743557&ref=share

Well, it's all worth it, even tho i had to cash out half of my savings for doing it. T_T and I also had to work hard doing my assignments (before and after the Byron Bay escape, cos I left my friends workin' on the group project while I was 'having fun'.. Sorry guuyyss!! so I had to pay them by finishing the rest of the assignment.) But it was brilliant!! :D

I guess this skydiving thing can be use as a therapy for the 'lack of confidence' and 'fearful' disorder. hahaha.. For example, I was able to do a presentation in front of the class after I did the skydiving. (It wasnt a perfect presentation but at least I spoke better than before.. hehehe...) rather than paying the psychiatrists, i bet the price are the same or maybe psychiatrists are more expensive).. mwahahaha.. *run*

Last words, at least I did one of the 'things I have to do before I die.' (my 'Bucket List') hehe.. me=victim of movies addiction.

Heeyloow!!

Heyo, hmm.. Actually, this is my first blog about myself, my family and friends and everything that I experienced in my life. My blogs before are always part of my assignments at uni. But this blog, I created it willingly by myself. I just think that it'd be fun to share our stories and experience to others, whether it's sad or happy. Well, in other hand, it might be able to help or entertain some people. (ok, i know it's cliche but who knoes? hehe..

What else I should write? hmm, ooww.. me? I'm a 21 y.o uni female student, majoring Animation, currently live in Australia, originally from Indonesia, paradoxical, shoes-lover, ice cream-philliac, insectophobic, lygophobic, redholic and blackholic, movies and computer games addict, messy, texas holdem mania, hmm, what else? ooww, my favourite activity is sleeping.. ^^ heey!! I'm not a lazy person, I'm just happy doin nothing!! ^^

So many things about me that i can't mention here, not becoz I dont want to (well, ok, there're some of it that I dont want to mention), but if I mentioned it all, you guys probably gonna be dead-bored reading it (which u might already..

Ok, I'll cut the crap now.. ;p (thanks for reading anyway)

See ya in the next post! :D