Been a long time i didnt update this blog! but time goes by and this is how i feel right now....
when i said that i love you, it doesnt mean that i need you.. yet i've also said that i need you, but it doesnt mean that i love you..
when i said that i need you, it doesnt mean that i really want you here by my side..yet i've also said that i want you by my side, but it doesnt mean that i need you..
you might find this so fucking confusing! but no, it's not because i'm a girl that make me feel this way... Sometimes human just dont know what they love, what they need, what they want.. We have to admit that we're such a confused creature. We kept looking without knowing what we've already got in life, or sometimes we really just dont have that yet and that's why we keep walking forward, keep looking what we really love, really need, and really want.
I say, there's nothing wrong with that. For all I know, moving forward is the best way to live your life. Especially, if you consider your life is 'harder' than anyone else. Forgetting the dark and gloomy past, leave it all behind. However, no matter how dark and hard it was, no matter how sad and pathetic it was to remember, sometimes you need to look back and see again what you've left behind.
We ran too fast sometimes, moving on too fast. I moved on too fast and I like to runaway from problems especially problems which I think could suck out my soul and happiness like a black hole in the space out there.
In the simplest language that i could explain, sometimes I walked too fast and I didnt realise that i've dropped something until somebody poked me and gave the stuff back to me. Or sometimes, i also didnt realise that I've lost my friends until they chased me back.
Nevertheless, we would not always got somebody to poke us and tell us that we've dropped something. sometimes our friends would not always chase us to tell us that they're there with us.
Therefore, keep moving forward, keep looking what you really love, need and want.. but slower your pace a little bit sometimes and look back to check what's behind you before you walked too far. There's always a possibility that you'd find your real treasure in between the trace that you've left behind...PS: You never really know what you got til it's gone!
